How It Feels To Float

Biz’s mother is encouraged when Biz finishes the photography class. Biz, however, wonders whether she is getting better since she still experiences “long patches of sad swooping in at night when there aren’t any sounds to cover it” (156). She still feels blank and empty, like something is missing. She is anxious to find out what it is: “You still haven’t discovered your life’s purpose” (159), she scolds herself.

On Bridgit’s advice, Biz goes to the local mall as part of her therapy. The mall only brings back memories of when she and Grace would hang out there. She tries to focus on what she can see and hear, the sounds of people, the smells from the food market. When friends from school walk past, however, Biz collapses into panic and, without thinking, sends a message to Jasper’s Facebook account.

The next day is Biz’s 17th birthday. After a special pancake breakfast, Biz receives an expensive digital camera as a gift from her mother. Biz, however, likes using her Dad’s vintage camera and tries to hide her disappointment. She is surprised when Sylvia calls and invites her to her home for lunch on Sunday.